The Gold Xperience: Tanning Bed Illuminations: The Reasons Why

The Gold Xperience: Tanning Bed Illuminations: The Reasons Why:   When things fall apart, they come together……..   Have you ever sat back and wondered how people have just gone from your lif...

Tanning Bed Illuminations: The Reasons Why

 

When things fall apart, they come together……..

 

Have you ever sat back and wondered how people have just gone from your life when at one time they were the most important ones in it?

I used to; but then I realized over time that all people aren’t meant to be forever people; no matter how much good they may do at one time or another, it won’t guarantee that they stay; it’s just their season.

I’ve met people who seem so willing to just let love fade, let friendships die, and they seem so care free as they let go and shut doors. I didn’t understand that for awhile, but again, life is great for teaching us things if we just keep our eyes and ears open, yes, but even more? We keep our sight focused on awareness. Sight is more than our eyes see, and hearing is more than our ears do. Our very soul will see and hear all that’s important if we just stay awake in our own lives.

I have become one of those people, a person who will let things just fade out naturally without trying to revive it, or reclaim it, I’m getting better at shutting doors that I used to struggle with terribly, not because my heart has gone cold, but because I am more aware than ever that if I don’t choose the company I keep carefully and spend my time doing the things that will move me forward in my life, I have no one else to find fault in when I am still stuck in this same rut 3 days, 4 months, or even years from now. It’s my job to get right in my life, it’s MY job to achieve my goals and make things better for myself, mine and my higher power. People will come and go as they need to, people who will teach you about yourself, people who will need teaching from you, but not all of them will find a permanent spot, some of them, hell maybe even most of them, will only briefly visit and then you or they, make a choice to keep moving.

 

That used to hurt me so much inside, and that’s not to say that sometimes it still doesn’t when a door closes, by my own choosing or someone else’s, but I’m learning each and every step of the way, to just accept that there is a force at work, something so much more powerful and knowing than I am, and I have to trust that whatever it is, whatever we are comfortable calling it, is so much wiser than we are about this journey we are traveling.

Certain things fall apart, so that other things can come together, because too often we linger on something or someone that no longer serves a purpose and we leave no room for the better opportunities to be presented. It’s all a matter of flowing WITH life, instead of trying to control and manipulate it the way we think it should go.

Today, my goal is to BE …to be happy, to be peaceful, to be love and to be light, to myself and all others who cross my path today. To be present in each moment I am in, and do my very best to reach for my highest potential no matter what I am doing or what my external circumstances may be. I wish for all of you the very same.

JUST BE.

 

©2013.NOVEMBERGOLD.All Rights Reserved. 

 

Coming Out

Coming Out:

 

I hid your face for reasons I cannot explain

Perhaps because anonymity felt safer

Than exposing that it was indeed all of my pain.

I hid your face to protect your heart

Not knowing that hiding you

Was just another sick part

Of the games that they force us to play

The judgments and the hatred

That they whisper but refuse to say

To our face that they cannot look at

For fear of being blinded by the truth.

Here we are bold and bright

And no longer imprisoned by the

World and its daggers

Defining our own borders

Not asking, but telling, it’s our right.

We don’t need your advice or your

Worn out opinion;

We don’t want to hear your voice anymore

Not part of your minion.

We’ll write what we want without a second guess

Be careful of the part you play

This ain’t checkers; it’s a full blown game of chess;

Taking no prisoners, our words will convey

The ugly stains you all left

And a chalk line where you lay.

Done with the sugar and the rhymes so sweet

Trust me when I tell you,

No more secrets will she keep.

Try her if you can

I’m letting her out of the cage

I’ll pray for your protection

As her words start to spray

Truth and reality; a holy resurrection

It’s time for your medicine

Are you ready for the injection?

©2013.NOVEMBERGOLD.All Rights Reserved. 

 

 

 

 

 

The Queen Code-For the Women

I am posting this link to a page because I feel like its incredibly valuable for women. I believe in assisting one another, empowering each other, and doing what we can to help one another move forward on this journey, both individually and as a whole. I hope you will find her as amazing as I do. :)

http://thequeencode.com/

"The Early bird..."

Gets the worm! Or in my case, hammers out pages of writing! Writer's block be gone!

I woke up this morning before the birds even did, and before I had a chance to even feel agitated about being awake so early on a day when I didn't have to be in to work til mid afternoon, I was up being productive and getting things done. I sat down at the computer with my coffee in hand to begin my morning routine of facebook reading and posting, but my mind was cranking out paragraphs and showing me pictures of him and a time passed; I took another sip and pulled up a blank page and began typing. I've always known that I would have to tell our story one day, it was too magical and spiritual not to, but each time I had tried to begin, I lost the feeling and got stuck on words, which would always lead to me walking away and leaving the story in the back recesses of my mind.

Today, however, everything was in sync and the words have flowed from me, the story of him and me unfolding and being re-lived, moment by precious moment...it's all a little bittersweet, really...but it will live on in my heart and spirit always, and he will always be one of my favorite stories to tell. :)

©2013.NOVEMBERGOLD.All Rights Reserved. 

Be Blessed today, folks, & always...Be a Blessing as you go!

Tanning Bed Illuminations: The Sunny Side of Life

Tanning Bed Illuminations: The Sunny Side of Life

 

As I begin this, I am chuckling because they say a title is one of the most important elements of a piece, it’s what initially draws a reader in; in this case the title runs far deeper than it seems and only a few will “get it” , which is completely okay, the message will be clear to the rest nonetheless.

 

Sunny side up eggs have always been unappealing to me, they are half cooked and slimy, both of which I cannot handle when it comes to eggs, but I have to think that those eggs are aware that they are only partially cooked, that technically they have room to be cooked more without being too cooked. Okay, seriously, I’m sure those eggs don’t know shit about anything, they are eggs!  That was a metaphor for anyone who missed it. Are we on the same page now? J

 

We meet people along the way in life for reasons, nothing is an accident, each and every experience and person is an instrument or a learning tool if you will, in one form or another; oftentimes we are the vessels by which something is to be taught/learned and we don’t even know it. We should learn to look at even the challenging people and experiences as “good” or “valuable” because it’s from those moments and those folks, that we truly experience learning and growth; I mean, think about it, if everything were all roses and rainbows how would we elevate ourselves to a better vibration? We wouldn’t; think about it like this, some of the most beautiful rock formations were created out of constant lashing by water and sand and dirt and other rocks colliding over and over again until the surface becomes smooth and shaped into something amazing; so too are we shaped and molded by life.

 

I met him over a year ago, (and one day that will be a story in and of itself) although it seems like forever has been and gone sometimes because the value of meeting him and his presence in my life has been immeasurable and intense. I’ve met a lot of people over the course of my life, and some of them I barely remember, while others have been a lasting memory that never fades or quiets, and some are still here, still journeying through life with me and they are the people I call Friend(s). Regardless of where the roads lead, and believe me, it has not always led to pretty places; he will always be someone who has had a lasting impact on my spirit. The danger with those who have such an impact on us is that here and there we allow them too much power in our psyche, we listen to them harder than we listen to our own voice sometimes and run the risk of falling into holes of self doubt and spiritual turmoil, until and unless we grow so strong within our own spirit that we can hear without completely absorbing the opinions and ranting of another soul who is searching and incomplete just like we are; therein lies the key, realizing that everyone is on a journey of some kind; no one is perfect and flawless, even those who stand on soapboxes and proclaim to have some royal insight that no one else but GOD has. I have found that those who preach about EGO are the ones that seem to be the most afflicted with the dis-ease of the ego. How ironic. I don’t appreciate people who feel the need to manipulate others with lies and mental games, I don’t have respect for those who feel justified in toying with others feelings for the sake of their own ego’s, and people who will lie and distort the truth of who they are, do just that for the simple sake of feeding something lacking within themselves. It’s a beautiful moment when we awaken to that realization and take away the power of those folks who feel so justified in tearing us down when we threaten the foundation of bullshit that they stand on. People who need to force-feed others with how enlightened they are, are clearly not all that enlightened at all; ego needs to claim righteousness; the simple and pure enlightened soul moves quietly through life and others and touches and heals just by the silent art of being.

Oh, but I do thank you…I thank you for the beauty you shared with me as well as the ego you exposed; I learned a great deal from both.

 

 

Love & Light~

 

©2013.NOVEMBERGOLD.All Rights Reserved. 

 

The Gold Xperience: Love from "The Other Side"

The Gold Xperience: Love from "The Other Side": Love from “The Other Side”   If you have followed my writing at all over time, you know that I grew up without my biological ...

Love from "The Other Side"

Love from “The Other Side”

 

If you have followed my writing at all over time, you know that I grew up without my biological father. Anyone that has gone through this understands what that sentence entails, the emotions that we go through, the losses we feel, and the spaces that just never get filled. I have lived 42 years of my life and never heard his voice, never got to ask for money or keys to the car (lol), never got to just simply hug him.

 

In a moment of life when living and dying collided, my best friend in the world lost her baby girl at 5 years old; a tragic loss that has left such an empty space in so many lives. Emily was a gift to the world, a gift to everyone who was lucky enough to know her and even now, after she is no longer in this physical world she continues to bless people in her life; and her mama is one of those people that share her blessings with those she loves and cares for. Her heart is golden and so very big. In her moments of need, she has been able to reach out to a medium who has given her a channel of communication to her Emily, and in doing so has passed the blessing of that woman on to me, and has allowed me to share her and her partner, the two Amy’s (lol) with others in my life who need to some uplifting and some peace with those they have lost.

 

To say that my life has been altered would be too simple, too easy of a statement; I am changed inside, enlightened and know that I will never go back to who I was before those moments with the Amy’s. I communicated with my father, my grandmother and my uncle, and the biggest thing I took from all of it is that they aren’t gone, I say this all the time and I always believed it, but now? Whew! I will forever be a faithful believer.

Angels come in all forms, sometimes human even, and if you are awake, you always know them and recognize them for the beauty they have within. Marcy is one of those people to me, her and Emily opened a door for me that I could have never seen coming, and the best I can do at this point is listen to the wisdom I have been given from those who still love me even though they now love me purely in spirit form; and pay it forward to those in my life that I know long for that “one more conversation” moment with those who have gone from this world. Amy G and Amy S, are also angels in human form, and I hope that they know what a beautiful medicine they are to wounded hearts who grieve the losses in their lives.

 

I am moved by love; from those here and always from those “there”…I remember today that I AM A BLESSED WOMAN; and Unc? I'm paying attention ;)

 

Go make it a great day! J

 

©2013.NOVEMBERGOLD.All Rights Reserved. 

 

Some Valuable Links

I want to share these links, because I feel like this man has so much worthwhile to say and so much we all need to hear and share with one another...enjoy and let me know what you think!

http://youtu.be/7564Os1UJPk

http://trentshelton.com/

Tanning Bed Illuminations- The Singular Theory

Singular thinking or something more?

 

One of my new favorite pages on facebook is a page by a young man named Trent Shelton; a very spiritually grounded man who inspires and encourages through his words and heartfelt expression. So to begin this, I would like to add his status from this morning on facebook because it seems truly fitting.

 

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Trent Shelton

Man, I'm going to SWEDEN next week to speak and spread RehabTime. It trips me out because I vividly remember people around me telling me that YOU HAVE to plan this and plan that to make BIG THINGS happen, but something inside my heart was telling me that the only plan you have to make is the plan to FOLLOW God, and HE will take your life to places beyond your greatest dreams. My m...indset wasn't even thinking international this year, but God had something in store for RehabTime far greater. The best advice I can give anyone trying to live their purpose, catch their dream, etc....is to get out your own way. Don't put limitations on the blessings that God wants to give you, because you're so focused on your own agenda. Live your purpose daily and don't worry about the "how". God will take your life where HE needs you to be! #RehabTime"

 

 

 

There is a room, a place where I go to now and then to escape the harsh lighting of reality and bask in the glow of peace and tranquility. I can see it all so clearly that I feel like I can actually touch the soft fabric of the furniture I sit in while I am there. I’ve been visiting this room for years now, since the first night I dreamed of it and sat there with a silent friend. It was a moment in life when I was feeling particularly battered and beaten by the struggles I was facing in my marriage; I found myself sitting in this wide open spacious room, sunlight beaming in through large open windows, and the high vaulted ceilings met with a ledge all around the room, a decorative ledge, I remember thinking; but that’s when I saw Him sitting in the corner of the room, above me. I was sitting in a white plush chair with high arms, just the way I like, and I had a cup of coffee and a pen and tablet in my lap; feeling more complete than I have ever felt and being very aware of so much serenity within me. The view out of the patio doors was one of beach and vast blue water all around, it’s the house I have been telling friends and family I’m going to live in one day while I write my novels; the place where my dreams are alive and thriving.

 

 

 As of lately, I have been thinking about my future more, about relationships, my degree, my goals of writing books and my desire to do something positive in this world I live in, simply put; to make a difference! Just the other day I had a conversation with a friend about how I have come to see the ways in which I have lived a very “singular” lifestyle, sometimes the actions we live everyday and don’t think twice about, may be creating that which we “think” we don’t want. I even thought about the fact that I have always had one cat that is truly MY cat, and have built very one on one relationships with those cats, and even though there were other cats in the house at times, I never had the relationship with them that I did with the one cat I called mine; and like we do with our children and strangers, I have always watched other people and how they reacted to those pets in my life, and in all honesty, if I saw that the cat was uneasy or that the person was not open to them, it changed my opinion of that person.

I’m about to get a new kitten in my life, and I am more than happy about it, because I have missed the companionship, but it also led me to thinking about that singular theory; am I once again creating a one on one relationship with my pet and not really leaving much room for anyone or anything else? So, I think that I have decided to bring two kitties home, to create more of a well rounded relationship for myself, but also so that the kittens will not be forced into a solitary life inside an apartment. But all of this begs the question; when I see this room of my dreams, the only other “person” I see with me, is the beautiful Italian looking Angel that sits up on the ledge diagonally from my chair where I sit. His wings are glittery white and his skin is perfectly golden, and he doesn’t speak to me, but yet I feel volumes being said when I am there with him. An old friend once said to me, that he shared similar experiences and that he finally concluded that perhaps his dreams did not involve a partner per say, that it could be that he was meant to be on his own, pursuing his dreams and achieving his goals, without that other human being as his “one”. I wonder if that is the message that I am getting. I wonder if I am just so married and committed to my goals and my dreams of writing that I don’t see room for another as a permanent structure in my world. I ponder sometimes whether I have just gotten so comfortable in my own space and in the silence that I don’t want to sacrifice it so that I can open my life and my time to another in such a committed way; or is it just that I am simply a hot mess who is confused and doesn’t know what I want! Aughhh, the agony! I guess the realest answer that I have for myself, and obviously for those of you reading this, is that I look for certain qualities in a partner, and in fairness how can I want certain things from someone, but not offer the same in return? So, maybe it isn’t that I don’t or can’t see myself with someone else, it’s that I am on a track of preparing myself and being the right person when he does step onto my path; yes, I think I like that much better. J

The Gold Xperience: Tanning Bed Illuminations- Intro

The Gold Xperience: Tanning Bed Illuminations- Intro: It's often funny to me where my inspiration comes from, or when it hits me; for years it was always while I was in the car either riding...

Tanning Bed Illuminations- Intro

It's often funny to me where my inspiration comes from, or when it hits me; for years it was always while I was in the car either riding or driving  and able to just "zone out" into my own sphere where my thoughts moved freely and came to me openly. I realized today as I was lying in a tanning bed that hard as I tried to erase all thought and purpose from my mind, it was no use, the words were moving and creating anyway.
So, I have decided to use that as my new blog series if you will, and its called Tanning Bed Illuminations! Amazing, right? Hardly, but fitting nonetheless. :)

I hope that you will follow along, I welcome feedback and interaction via email and comments etc...how else will I know you're there if you don't show yourself? ;)

Come on, let's enjoy the tanning bed moments together! LOL