I used to; but then I realized over time that all people
aren’t meant to be forever people; no matter how much good they may do at one
time or another, it won’t guarantee that they stay; it’s just their season.
I’ve met people who seem so willing to just let love fade,
let friendships die, and they seem so care free as they let go and shut doors.
I didn’t understand that for awhile, but again, life is great for teaching us
things if we just keep our eyes and ears open, yes, but even more? We keep our
sight focused on awareness. Sight is more than our eyes see, and hearing is
more than our ears do. Our very soul will see
and hear all that’s important if we just stay awake in our own lives.
I have become one of those people, a person who will let
things just fade out naturally without trying to revive it, or reclaim it, I’m
getting better at shutting doors that I used to struggle with terribly, not
because my heart has gone cold, but because I am more aware than ever that if I
don’t choose the company I keep carefully and spend my time doing the things
that will move me forward in my life, I have no one else to find fault in when
I am still stuck in this same rut 3 days, 4 months, or even years from now.
It’s my job to get right in my life, it’s MY job to achieve my goals and make
things better for myself, mine and my higher power. People will come and go as
they need to, people who will teach you about yourself, people who will need
teaching from you, but not all of them will find a permanent spot, some of
them, hell maybe even most of them, will only briefly visit and then you or
they, make a choice to keep moving.
That used to hurt me so much inside, and that’s not to say
that sometimes it still doesn’t when a door closes, by my own choosing or
someone else’s, but I’m learning each and every step of the way, to just accept
that there is a force at work, something so much more powerful and knowing than
I am, and I have to trust that whatever it is, whatever we are comfortable
calling it, is so much wiser than we are about this journey we are traveling.
Certain things fall apart, so that other things can come
together, because too often we linger on something or someone that no longer
serves a purpose and we leave no room for the better opportunities to be
presented. It’s all a matter of flowing WITH life, instead of trying to control
and manipulate it the way we think it should go.
Today, my goal is to BE
…to be happy, to be peaceful, to be love and to be light, to myself and all
others who cross my path today. To be present in each moment I am in, and do my
very best to reach for my highest potential no matter what I am doing or what
my external circumstances may be. I wish for all of you the very same.
JUST BE.
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