TWO SIDES
I felt you pushing on the door
But all I could do was stand on the other side
refusing to allow it to open all the way;
It was a moment of choices and I had to choose the right
one.
Almost like a predator you prey upon my kindness
And take me for granted, always knowing when to strike
as though you smell the vulnerability on me.
I don’t believe in accidents, so I know that I am here again
For a reason; once again facing test day.
I have two choices now as I stand
on the other side of this door with you;
I can take the road that is predictable, even though
It won’t be good for me, or maybe even for you, it will
At least be familiar; or I can quietly just walk away
And leave you standing there alone to face your own hellish
demons without being able to use me as a buffer.
While the other just seems so easy; but then
The realization strikes with brute force and tells me
That to concede once more will bring me no peace,
Only more let down and disappointment,
because at the end of the day this really isn’t about you at
all-
It is about Me and what I will allow in my life.
Breathing out doubt and self defeating thoughts;
And then quietly I moved away from the door
and left you alone on the other side of it.
You can push it open, I just won’t be there waiting
on the other side this time.
I’m choosing me over you; I’m choosing forward progress over
chaos.
I choose to love myself enough to make the right choice
Because I know that any other option will
Keep me grounded in one spot and I cannot
Move forward with my feet stuck in quicksand.
07/2013
©2013.NOVEMBERGOLD.All
Rights Reserved.
